Relaxed?

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I'm no less restless at the core, but there is something more generally relaxed about me now. Maybe relaxed isn't the right word. At ease? More at ease? That's not right either. There's nothing easy. Is it reassurance I'm on the right path? that's not it either, because it's not like any path before was wrong. Every path got me to this point.

Maybe it's just happy? Or maybe more accurately my tenuous balance between cynicism and optimism is finally at least teetering towards the optimistic side for now, and while that's the case, I'll enjoy it.

So no. I'm not relaxed. And it's not "happy." I'm just, for the first time in a long time, sure.